whatatearfulnight

kini tak ada terdengar kabar dari dirimu
kini kau telah menghilang jauh dari diriku
semua tinggal cerita antara kau dan aku
namun satu yang perlu engkau tahu 
api cintaku padamu tak pernah padam, tak pernah padam





Tak Pernah Padam - Sandhy Sondoro

nevermind, im (not) done (yet) with myself.

how can i move on when all the things around me conspiring to remind me of you

saying your name again and again

suddenly your friends alternately come and ask about you

how can i move on when the universe seems like tell me don't

or maybe it's just me and myself and my messed-up-thought and screwed-up-heart just don't want to move the fuck on from you.

here i am with this helpless feeling thinking about you like every single time

such a dumb

tell them to shut the hell up!

atas nama Allah yang maha pengasih dan maha mengabulkan permintaan

i've been thinking about what to do in 2012,
a bit different with last year, 'cause i want it to be more realistic. and here they are:

- i should graduate from my college and put S.I.P title after my name
- make a production house with my friend
- learn cook more! be very good in cooking, both main course and dessert
- pray five times a day! not to skip it even once
- buy a bike and cycling around Jogja
- go to a new place. no matter how far, how near, how high, how deep
- exploring another beautiful beaches
- smile more, caring more, make friends even more
- get a dream job
- found a soul mate :)
- to be continued..

when I'm lost at the desert

no one look for me and i keep going on

something wrong.. there's something wrong

that i can't find my back home

i'm so tired. i'm really tired

i'm still waiting. waiting for a ride

and i close my eyes i hope i can see

my old man smile and hold me tight

please somebody please

take me home..

Take Me Home - Endah 'N Rhesa

preface

20112

say hello to the battlefield.
this year, it's time for me to fight for anything in my life.
college, career, my dream-list, and definitely You.

this year have to be more fun more success and more laughter even i know it's so tough to go trough.
i don't know how but if i still have faith, i believe i can.
may Allah bless me, bless you. :)


p.s: if you read this, (whenever it is) i want to fight for you i won't give up. even all i can do is just hoping for the best and pray for you from afar. thank you for the bitter-sweet memories. i miss..